My own Bedtime story

I do not have a lot to write about today, I just want to calm myself and get rid of some bad emotions before I go to bed. Writing normally helps me to do so, thus this small post.

When I started this blog, I was in a small mountain resort in Lesotho, Africa. At the moment I am writing from an apartment in Tatranska Lomnica, Slovakia, Europe. The two countries are fairly far apart - about 9000 kilometers if you make a direct line between the two. By car the fastest route would take you approximately 180 hours to get from point A to point B. That is only 7 and a half days. (Imagine living in a time where there was no cars?!) Introducing the Airbus a380! - It took me 33 hours to get from my house in South Africa to where I am now, excluding the two days I spent at a friends house along the way. Including stop overs, train rides, bus rides and a refreshing yet tense walk from a small bus stop in Poland to a 3 house town in Slovakia.

Okay okay, I am sure you get the picture. I am far from where I was when this exploration into relationships started. Both in physical and spiritual terms. Even-though I did not write continuously on this blog, I did think about human nature and relationships a lot. And by that I mean all of the time! Starting this blog really helped me to see a lot of things in perspective. For that I am grateful!

Coming back to the distance between now and then, almost everything in my surroundings have changed. The landscape looks different, the food is different, the language differs. The list goes on and on. There is one thing that did not change. One very sad thing. People. We are cruel and unforgiving, wherever we are and whoever we are. Whether we are black and tend goats for a living or white and tend bank accounts for a living. Last night I saw a young man, arrogant in his own ability, rejoice at someone else's failure. This young man did not know the person who failed, he didn't understand his circumstances and he didn't care about his circumstances. What's even worse, the person who failed didn't even compete against the young man. Not so long ago, I was that young man. It sickens me to think that I enjoyed other people's loss for no apparent reason. Only, there must be a reason, won't you agree..?

Let's talk about that some other time, okay? I am feeling quite relaxed right now - Mission Accomplished - therefore I am off to bed. Sleep well all ye readers! Or in case you are starting your day with this blog post, have a lovely day filled with Love and Peace (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7AHcg8t2Tk)

It is the small details in life that make it worth living. What do you see here?

Sludge-cake Icing.

Sitting in front of a computer. Alone, at a time when most people are asleep, I realized that I have a problem. In some areas of my life, I progress in leaps and bounds! Other areas, however, are pits of sludge, sucking me in, pulling me under, threatening to drown me.

Well, you guessed it folks - We're talking about relationships!

They say that time and distance heals everything, but in my opinion, it doesn't. It only puts a shine on the problem. You will think less and less about a problem the farther you are from it, but as soon as you come close, you realize that it is still there. Time is like a painter and distance the paint, to complete the analogy, we can style the problem as a crumbling wall. So, along comes the painter and he paints the wall. It looks great from afar, but once you start to inspect the wall, you can see that it is still crumbling.

You are probably wondering where this time/distance/paint thing fits into the scheme of things? So am I...
Haha, just kidding! I have problems that needs to be solved and I haven't really been paying attention to them. Every now and again they bubble to the surface and every time they do, they seem larger and more ominous.

Some of my friends make me sad. (Friends are not confined to the "humans only" category). These friends tend to make my life difficult by not wanting to get along with each other. What should I do? Try to be a mediator between the two parties or just leave it and let nature run it's course? Pick one over the other? Try to please them both, ignore them both? Aarghhh!!! I do not know what to do or how to do it, yet something must be done! In some cases it is easier to decide what to do, because society dictates that one of the relationships is way more important than the other. But in other cases it is not that clear. What if both parties are very important to me and both parties are wrong, how should I deal with that? Just put a stop to both relationships?

I guess what I need to figure out is this: Do I try to repair the wall or do I break it down and rebuild it?

Speaking of walls, look at all these marvelously put together walls!